the monster behind door number 3

is there a moment in every life when they
face the monster that sucks the blood that
pumps through their veins and they realize
that this is it this is what will finally do me
in and if there is a moment is it fleeting or
subconscious or do some lives see the end
in all its gory monstrousness and wake up
sweating to the realization that my days are
numbered
and so what do i do now do i bury my head
back in the sand and hope this epiphany was
merely indigestion or do i run pack my bags
and really live for the few years months hours
that remain and how do i tally up the past so
it makes sense in light of how close this thing
lurks
does He give other options when the person
opens door number 3 and finds the monster
can they choose door number 1 or maybe 10
and does it really matter anyway since all
will come to the monster's door someday but
what is really frightening is how i am feeling so
cowardly