but because

i'm falling down again
a thousand prayers unanswered
i've laboured long and lonely
seen mountains still unmoved
when days turn into months
and hope becomes opaque
my heart begins the barricade
against familiar breaks
along the road less traveled
did i miss a fork not marked
in pursuit of longings deep
did You mean something else
i'm hunkered down resigned
to mend these nets so torn
from stormy waters fruitless
when again i hear Your voice
protesting at the path
i think i know so well
these are familiar waters
but Your gaze is strong and still
so because You say so
i'll trust this bleeding heart
risk on a new adventure
You've never failed me yet

dead ends?

i've wandered here and there
seen somewhere from afar
spent golden hours waiting
trekked nowhere in a car

i've friends of many lands
some passing some more dear
even felt the parting pang
as some gave in to fear

the road's been long and winding
seemed full of ends too bent
the wind of memory whispers
a pall on time well spent

the future can seem heavy
for such a waif as i
these dreams and hopes still cherished
can with the harsh light die

i'm standing in the shadow
thrown by a lighted space
the joyful tableau beckons
but i can't see your face

what courage have i squandered
on rambling paths afield
now when a seed is needed
i hesitate to yield

so now i come again
the place all paths must find
where all my striving's useless
and all my wisdom blind

so simple yet so priceless
the moment of defeat
when all i know to do
is fall down at Your feet

You gently pull the veil
reveal each step i've trod
in spite of feeling lonely
was in the hand of God