adrift

i rise and walk through dusty days
the heat shimmers off the streets
i lay down my head when day is done
but find no rest between the sheets
days slip by like grains of sand
in an hourglass grown obscure
once i thought a hope was coming
now i think i'm not so sure
i used to tell my wandering feet
faerie tales of a home to come
now my steps seem automated
on a path that's troublesome
i believed i could face anything
because He asked it of me
how little i knew back then
how debilitating nothing can be
i'm still learning how to bear it
this cross like Éowyn a cage
but some nights the glassy expanse
seems too great for courage
don't give in to the emptiness
i whisper as the boat rocks slow
His love never failed me yet
keep waiting for the wind to blow

borrowed time

it's relentless the march that bows to no man
that stops for no woman no matter how she
pleads and as the Pleiades fall on yet another
year gone by i think of how near we sometimes
come to the hourglass running out perhaps
daily the possibility passes us by and we
oblivious to death's soft breath keep laughing
and weeping and arguing until we can no
longer unless sometimes the nearness is
thrust upon us through a moment a cut cord
a machine part that should have failed sending
us hurtling into forever and we pause and i
pause
realize i'm living on borrowed time that i
do not own and as with anything borrowed
i must take good care for i must return it
give an answer for its use even if i can't
quite seem to figure out the purpose in this
hour day year life i must still live knowing
each breath well each breath could be my
last and i don't decide when so i must take
care trust that He who does know has a plan
beyond my railings wanderings longings
this too shall pass but i shall never pass
out of His sovereign relentless arms of love