23 October 2009

the blow

i see you
as i walk in the room
my arms ache
to hold you
smother fear
in love's embrace
protect your life
from this new presence
unwelcome spectre

this sand now neon
flows heedlessly
and i cannot stop it
bring back yesterday
delay tomorrow
my arms weaken

but my heart strengthens
resolution anew
to offer Beulah's comfort
eternal touch

19 October 2009

Traum

i've fallen one too many times
into your eyes
lingered just a little longer
outside your touch
tried more often than not
to make you smile
and drowned eagerly
in your laugh

now the cold light of dawn has come
reality calms
and so i place you sadly
on the shelf
along with the other phantoms
haunting memories
dreams cannot keep me warm
love must be flesh

i bask in the bittersweet release
of goodbye

17 October 2009

on love and reciprocity

a fragment

if i love you
you will love me
but sometimes 2 & 2
does not equal 4
when i love and hold
my 2 out to you
it doesn't always find
a plus

02 October 2009

la vida tal como es

lágrimas en la noche
andando soltera
sueños de arena
en frente de unas olas
gozo y tristeza
unos saludos nuevos
dolor tremendo
esperanza que no muere

01 October 2009

falling jars

fall is here. the rains come and go, leaving behind crisp, glistening grey days of meandering sunbursts. the beauty of a newly cleaned leaf, green or golden against a blue sky has a piercing quality. transitory, i feel the urge to go and bathe my eyes in the wonders of this season for all too soon it will pass and the cold that bars me behind closed windows and inside warm wool hats.
echoing in my ears each fall is the music of jars of clay, especially their "who we are instead" album. through sharp guitar and creative accompaniment and rhythm they capture the feel of bittersweet transitory beauty. lyrics tell of the age-old struggle with this life that at once entices and destroys, and of the sublime hope that this is not the end.

so when i'm lonely or when i'm old
life is more behind me
all the stories have been told
i can fix my gaze up through the clouds
where i'm gonna be...
my heavenly